Somebody woke up on the wrong side of the
bed this morning.
That would be me.
Bad moods are the pits. Especially when
they make no sense. Even a cheerful boyfriend serving me eggs and coffee this
morning as I scowled at him from underneath a mane of bedhead could only crack
my face into a smile for the short commute to work before I proceeded to brood
at my desk about my purpose in life.
With my grad school application constantly
on my mind for the past three months, but no time yet to actually put pen to
paper, my stress level has reached that embarrassing point at which the
smallest point of tension causes me to erupt into an irrational explosion of
"What am I doing with my life?!"
BUT, the good news is that after only about
an hour wasted by staring blankly at nothing in my little corner cubicle, I remembered
this lovely blog and suddenly felt something close to inspiration and
excitement. Writing has always made me feel grounded and helped me to find
direction, and so as soon as I take the opportunity to put some coherent
sentences out there into the world, I feel like I have a focused purpose again.
Not only that, but it cheers me up! I went
from sulking about my bank account and questioning every plan I've ever made,
to appreciating the little things that are worth writing – and thinking –
about. Like the lunch date I have with my mom in an hour. And the work out I
have scheduled for the morning. And the free Starbucks drink loaded up on my
card. And the trip to Costa Rica happening in three weeks!
All the big things work out eventually
and all the little annoying things don't really matter. And a good mood is
simply so much easier than a grumpy one. ("The only one you're punishing is yourself," lectured the boyfriend, who has some sort of invisible shield that defends his chirpy mood from my early morning evil eye.) It's harder work to frown than smile!
Apparently writing goes one step beyond
helping me prioritize my thoughts and turns me into a nauseatingly cheery
philosopher (first one ever) so let's end this before it gets sickening.
Happy
Friday!
