Cheery Philosopher

Somebody woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning.

That would be me.

Bad moods are the pits. Especially when they make no sense. Even a cheerful boyfriend serving me eggs and coffee this morning as I scowled at him from underneath a mane of bedhead could only crack my face into a smile for the short commute to work before I proceeded to brood at my desk about my purpose in life.

With my grad school application constantly on my mind for the past three months, but no time yet to actually put pen to paper, my stress level has reached that embarrassing point at which the smallest point of tension causes me to erupt into an irrational explosion of "What am I doing with my life?!"

BUT, the good news is that after only about an hour wasted by staring blankly at nothing in my little corner cubicle, I remembered this lovely blog and suddenly felt something close to inspiration and excitement. Writing has always made me feel grounded and helped me to find direction, and so as soon as I take the opportunity to put some coherent sentences out there into the world, I feel like I have a focused purpose again.

Not only that, but it cheers me up! I went from sulking about my bank account and questioning every plan I've ever made, to appreciating the little things that are worth writing – and thinking – about. Like the lunch date I have with my mom in an hour. And the work out I have scheduled for the morning. And the free Starbucks drink loaded up on my card. And the trip to Costa Rica happening in three weeks!

All the big things work out eventually and all the little annoying things don't really matter. And a good mood is simply so much easier than a grumpy one. ("The only one you're punishing is yourself," lectured the boyfriend, who has some sort of invisible shield that defends his chirpy mood from my early morning evil eye.) It's harder work to frown than smile!

Apparently writing goes one step beyond helping me prioritize my thoughts and turns me into a nauseatingly cheery philosopher (first one ever) so let's end this before it gets sickening. 

Happy Friday!